Manifolds

January 28, 2009

Back to the BMI chasing. Today=47.08

Filed under: food,health — origamifreak @ 5:48 pm

After a really bad lapse where last fall I gained back up to almost the same weight where I started, I’ve pushed it back down again. Mostly through the help of the pre-gastric ulcer which acts up when 1) I overfill and 2) I eat at night.

The most recent bout on the evening of December 11 / morning of December 12 was so very painful and unpleasant that something clicked in my head and I realized that I would rather be hungry than feel like that ever again. EVER again. Even though this has been going on sporadically for years, the most recent memory of the pain and the vomiting has stuck with me long enough that I have maintained a healthy fear of overeating for over 6 weeks, and as a result am finding out what it feels like to be hungry, how to manage my blood sugar, what being full feels like, how long I need to wait in order to even know if I’m full, etc. In effect, I’ve got the same symptoms as a friend at work who had her stomach stapled, but without the cost and associated issues of elective surgery.

People have asked why I don’t go to the doctor about this. I have two reasons, and I think they’re sound. First, the problem only happens when I overeat at night (i.e. it hasn’t happened since 12/11), and second, this is the first thing ever that has worked that hasn’t involved obsessive calorie-counting (i.e. using WW points, etc.). And I’m sorry, but while obsessive calorie-counting does in the short term help with managing my eating, it does NOT work in the long term because it presents significant quality of life issues. There is an inherent psychological problem with focusing on NOT doing something that I’ve never been able to overcome. So I’ll take the ulcer memory and use it. Consider it my disulfiram.

All the years of calorie-counting have given me the tools to eat in a healthy way, and I’m doing that, but just without counting anything. Oatmeal for breakfast, homemade soup for lunch, etc. Just less of it and not overfilling. And not eating at night. If I’m bored I can clean the bathroom or organize the garage, for Pete’s sake.

Also I’m back with the H2O aerobics, and will hopefully start working out in the basement soon as well. (As soon as the rest of the bamboo planks have been distributed to the rest of the house for acclimation.)

Stay tuned.

P.S.  This may have helped, too:

phenethylamine

(internally synthesized, of course)

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4 Comments »

  1. Good for you, in both senses.

    Comment by jpm14 — February 1, 2009 @ 3:55 pm | Reply

  2. Sounds like you’re on the right path on all counts, and yes constantly counting calories only works short time. After awhile it’s “oh screw that”.

    Comment by Kathie — February 4, 2009 @ 7:59 pm | Reply

  3. […] BMI = 46.58 Filed under: health — origamifreak @ 9:26 am Progress.  Tonight will be the first workout in the home gym […]

    Pingback by New BMI = 46.58 « Manifolds — February 18, 2009 @ 9:26 am | Reply

  4. […] Back to the BMI chasing. Today=47.08 Filed under: food, health — origamifreak @ 5:48 pm […]

    Pingback by New BMI = 26.28 « Manifolds — November 28, 2009 @ 9:25 am | Reply


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